wajarkah perasaan ini?

salam..

lately i've been asking myself the above question..
to think about it,
the answer is yes..if i'm being selfish

ntah.
i don't know
there were times when i think that i'm right..
so the feeling is wajar..
but kadang2 biler fikir2 balik..
i shouldn't been doing that..

ntah laa..
if there is someone i can share the story with,
it would be my sisters..
but they are all at my home..huhu..

i can't predict what will happen next..

anyway,
i'm sorry again for that person.
i'm sorry if i hurt your feelings.
i'm sorry.

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if you asked me that question to me face-to-face,
maybe i'll be giving you the answer.
MAYBE..

how i love pesta buku

jumaat aku pegi lagi ngan ros....wah..giler kan..haha :P

weekend

last saturday, i went to putrajaya for the hot air ballon fiest 2010..

my brother(puterabemi) took us ( me, ina n ros) to the fiest..
[thanks bemi for luangkan your busy time n balik kajang to go to the fiest :)]

it was fun, however i'm not so excited about it went i reached there.
the ballon was beautiful, however at 9, they already took down the ballon due to the kepanasan pagi..

memule mase dgr about the fiest, i was somehow excited about it..ingatkan nk naik the ballon..
but what's the meaning of naik ballon yg di ikat..mcm naik lif aje...(macam bodo..hoho..sorry)
however,
eventhough we arrived there quite early,
the morning tickets were already sold out!
and they said,
"org datang se awal 6 pagi...kalo nk naik jugak, beli tiket pukul 6 petang karang"
then after much thought, we [me, kak emi, bemi, hani izni n lini] decided not to take the ride...

so we wander around...
bemi still havent find a parking spot..
so bemi n kak emi went to find the parking spot.
me, hani. izni and lini jalan2 there..

there was nothing much to see as they have turunkan most of the balloons..
then we jalan ke tepi tasik, as lini wish..
and we saw the waterball..
nmpk cm best tapi cm mahal pulak...rm40 for just 5 mins ++...
takyah laa..tengok ajelah..
besides,
die ikat the water ball..
and kitorg tgk the kids in the waterball mcm dah tatau nk wat ape dah..hahaha...

after that jln2 lg..
nmpk the bola taman yg besar tu..ape tah namenye.
(and bemi n kak emi then main that game after that...)

pastu kitorg main basikal pulak..
(penatlaa nk tulis haha)
rm 15 for 15 mins...
best jugak laa tp tempatnye kecik je..huhu.
pastu acara snap2 gambar.
pusing2 the carnival area..
bemi n kak emi dah lost ke mane tah..
again,
i'm the one responsible of taking care for all my 3 little sisters..
kitorg jln2 sekiktar tempat jual2 tu..nothing much actually.so bought nothing but drinks
kena kacau dengan clowns...sabar jelah.
then kitorg pon balik.
diorg ajak i balik umah, sbb kononnye nk pegi bookfair the next day...
after we send ina n ros to kolej,
we went home.

pastu cm biase laa sume penat.
tp aku buat apetah..rasenye taktido pon..
pape jelah


the next day.ahad.
hantar zaki balik kolej then hantar me.
abah tak bg gi bukfair pasal ramai org...
tp kitorg smpt gi midvalley.
bcoz ibu n adik2 tak pernah gi sane.
the first shop we head on....bookstore!!

oh kitorg mmg family giler buku.
mane2 pehi mesti nk cari buku.
shopping2 ni kitorg tak layan sgt...hehe..
then we bought some books n novel.
then abah dtg join kitorg.
kitorg gi masuk beli barang.
kt dlm tu ade gak abah marah2...tp biarla kan..
after that pegi solat.
rupenye kat midval tu telekung kena pinjam kt kaunter info pulak...hmm..

after that kitorg pon blah.
midval cm biase laa ramai giler org.

abah pulak parking jauh giler.
ala sebelah garden seberang parit besar tu..haaa...jauh tak?dgn barangg yg quite heavy..

pastu hntr zaki.
then hantar aku.

esoknye, isnin..
i have class at HKL...
however pukul 11 dah hbs..
ape lagi...
ajak diorg gi bookfair..and they agreed!!!!!! :))))
the 5 of us went there by taxi.sbnrnye jln kaki pon boleh tp takpela kan..

sebaik sahaja sampai pwtc tu,
mata aku trus bersinar2..
hati rase bahagia sgt..
bak kate abg zaki,.."ahhhhhhhhhh...heaven~"
seronok giler akhirnye sampai ke bookfair yang ditunggu2!!!

to make it short..
i bought 2 novels by hlovate...waaaaaaaaaaa!!!
after that gi makan.
tgk2 dah pukul 2
gi solat
pastu aku n ros jln2 kejap kt the mall tu..
ingatkan nk sambung pusing bookfai pasal td tak habis pusing lagi..
tp bas fac sampai kol 4..
so kitorg pon jln kaki ke grand season tu..
sampai2, bas tak sampai lagi.
ros decided to go solat first, as chin told us that the bus will only come at 5.
tgh2 kt surau, tp blm solat lg, tp dah pki telekung..
fad telepon ckp bas da smpi n kitorg je yg blom naik..
adoi..
kitorg pon turun.
naik bas.
balik kolej.

tp yg terkilannye,
tak dapat nk habiskan pusing bookfair tu..
ni semuenye pasal 'hal itu'!!!
bengang betol!!


[lainkali baru upload gmbr]

let's go~!!

kwn2..
jom pegi tgk hot ballon at putrajaya this school holiday..

for more info :
http://www.myballoonfiesta.com/itinerary.php

especially those yg dok dkt putrajaya tu..hehe..

i'm depressed ?

salam..

yes, slightly..
and what makes it even worse,
i don't know to whom should i tell...
nk bgtau hani....takut kacau pulak coz dis week she's having her exam...
huhu..

yesterday,
i was crying for a little bit during the ward round..
and i'm very confident that no one noticed it...

i cried after i gave fad her birthday present...
anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY NUR FADHILAH MOIN!
great to know you~

i think i have to go back home to 'neutralised' my self...
because when i'm at home..
i have my family
i have my sisters to make me laughing out loud
i have my sisterd to forget all these problem in college..
and home, is always the best place to go..

maybe i'm at fault,
or it's them
or it's nobody fault..
i just felt depressed..

org cakap,
cemburu tu maknenye sayang..

i can't love you as what i should after all what you have done to me.
it's heartbreaking, do you know it?

you claimed that you know me...
but i REALLY DOUBT that because even i, myself don't really know myself.
if you really know me(like what you claimed before),
you won't treat me this way...

all of this years,
i think i have been tolerating with this for so long
i tried to ignore it,
but i can't
yes,
i cried a lot because of you.
i'm sorry i feel this way towards you...
i'm sorry for having the jealousy...
i'm sorry for everything....

anyway,
'thanks' for making me feel this way..
maybe it was all my fault, from the beginning..
and i've to admit that,
i don't really know you..

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i hate you for making me depressed
i hate you for making me sad
i hate you for making me cried
i hate you for making me unhappy..
and i hate that you made me became a hipocrite person...

i'm sorry for all i have done to you
i thank you because of all the sweet memories we have...

i don't want much,
i just want you to treat me like a friend
a friend that i can trust,
a friend that i can rely on
a friend that i can share my story with
and of course, to listen to yours too
i don't mind if you don't want to share your deepest secret with me.
of do i?


i'm sorry for all..
maaf kalau lepas ni i don't treat you like before.
sakitnyen hati ni bile terfikirkan.
tapi untuk ignore it,
i am tired now.

go away if you want to.
tell me that you don't like me if you do
tell me that you don't trust me if you do..

call me manja,
call me cengeng
call me mengada2
call me sememeh..
but it's all my feeling...so...

SUKATI AKULAH!

(anyway, all the best for SPM candidate 09 for your result)

p/s :it's not about a guy ok...

............

again...

your words hurts me...........
:(

hurt

those words...
hurts me.

those action..
hurts me.

thinking 'bout it...
hurts me..

sports medicine,bukit jalil

A picture says thousands of words..

[me n Sazali..hehe]

Ms Ooi was the one responsible to show us the place, and the one for the conditioning session...the session was quite fun, and actually, mase warmed up pon i dah tired..huhu..that's show how unfit i am...

while waiting for Mr Zawawi to come...somebody snatch this picture...

[with Mr Zawawi - talking about nutrition]

[taping session with Miss Sandra]

taping in progress...(ishabee was my partner in this activity)

and the result were ............

obviously i'm not good in taping....huhu..sorry isha :(

and thanks for making such a nice taping...

(i'm not good in tearing the tape..huhu T_T)

psychology session with Miss Rebecca...relaxation time!

end of posting...

gonna miss this place..

a great enjoyable posting!!

[with Assoc. Prof Dr Lim Wai Kong]

we forgotten to take pictures with some other ppl that teach us throughout the week, however, a million of thanks we would like to give for all of you..and insyaAllah, this memory will still be there..

thanks for everyone in ISN...

macam-macam....hoho

so i'm done with my radiological posting..

or also called the dark room posting where you can sleep and nobody (if you're lucky enough!) caught you sleeping..hehe..

it was a nice posting though..learned so much from Dr Aisyah...

owh, by the way, she IS cute..hoho..

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and now i'm doing my 2nd posting for the semester,

the sports medicine posting in bukit jalil...

never thought i could enter that place in my life bcoz i'm not into sports,hehe

we're already in our day 2 of the posting,

and the posting is,

so far so good!

it is exciting,fun, and sort of time for enjoying yourself and in the same time learning..

so many new things that i've learned..

the doctors there are nice...very-very nice indeed...
you got to exercise throughout the posting....

playing...wee~

owh,

i remembered what happened during our day 1st of posting.

we were all in the clinic.

just entered the clinic.

and it was the first patient for us.
suddenly,

ntah mcmne tah,

either me or mizah had langgar something and...

'kcing'..(ntah ape bunyi kaca pecah).......the thing broke..o'-o

terkejut giler ktorg.

malu jugak.

nasib baik dr tu sporting je.

then mizah+isha+syida went to cari the penyapu and they went back with miss cleaner instead..(i planned to go with them but 4 person searching for a broom isn't it too many ppl?)

so it was our day first experience there....for day 1.

the rest of the day was a lot of fun and fun!!

tengah exercise cum playing..hahaha...

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masak & makan...

hehe...

date : 28th feb 10.

location : rumah

the cook : me..hoho :P

actually it was bcoz ibu was not feeling well the other day.and she asked me to cook.[and kaknur wasn't home to cook for us too, unfortunately :( ]

as it was the first time i ever cook ayam masak lemak..so i have no idea how to cook it, and what is the important things to put into.

so i browse into the internet.

and there, in a minute, i've got the recipe :)

but first have to wait for the chicken to defrost.

so i do something else, like wash the dishes...

it was a lot!phew~ nasib baik laa i kinda like basuh pinggan rather than sidai baju.

and anyway,

after all the things has been prepared..i started cooking, alone, with the help of hani for a while because she said :hani banyak homeworks laa kakdin!!

and without further due,

here i present you,
my cooking!.................hehehe

sayur - dah biase masak..ala campak2 je..hahaha (belagak giler )

ayam masak lemak - first time masak.

and the colour dah jd cm masak kurma.

tapi ntah2 dah bukan masak lemak dah coz i did put some black pepper in that..haha..

and the colour wasn't so convincing.

hati masak sambal..letak2 je jadilah cmni..

tapi kena rebus dulu laa.

kalo x boleh hancur benda ni..

the taste :

not so good, but not so bad..

they was eatable.

and i didnt have any stomach-ache the next day (but who knows they-my family might have..hehe)

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when we were borak-ing in surau today,

and something came up during the conversation...

suddenly she said..(one of them..name undisclosed)

"biler korg nk declare dini?"

adoyai weiii.................then i replied, something like this...

"ape mendenye yang nk di-declare kalau nothing happens yet kan?"

korang ni banyak imaginasi laa..hahha

and banyak dengar khabar angin..

but i still haven't found who was the first person responsible to sebarkan the khabar angin.....