i'm depressed ?

salam..

yes, slightly..
and what makes it even worse,
i don't know to whom should i tell...
nk bgtau hani....takut kacau pulak coz dis week she's having her exam...
huhu..

yesterday,
i was crying for a little bit during the ward round..
and i'm very confident that no one noticed it...

i cried after i gave fad her birthday present...
anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY NUR FADHILAH MOIN!
great to know you~

i think i have to go back home to 'neutralised' my self...
because when i'm at home..
i have my family
i have my sisters to make me laughing out loud
i have my sisterd to forget all these problem in college..
and home, is always the best place to go..

maybe i'm at fault,
or it's them
or it's nobody fault..
i just felt depressed..

org cakap,
cemburu tu maknenye sayang..

i can't love you as what i should after all what you have done to me.
it's heartbreaking, do you know it?

you claimed that you know me...
but i REALLY DOUBT that because even i, myself don't really know myself.
if you really know me(like what you claimed before),
you won't treat me this way...

all of this years,
i think i have been tolerating with this for so long
i tried to ignore it,
but i can't
yes,
i cried a lot because of you.
i'm sorry i feel this way towards you...
i'm sorry for having the jealousy...
i'm sorry for everything....

anyway,
'thanks' for making me feel this way..
maybe it was all my fault, from the beginning..
and i've to admit that,
i don't really know you..

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i hate you for making me depressed
i hate you for making me sad
i hate you for making me cried
i hate you for making me unhappy..
and i hate that you made me became a hipocrite person...

i'm sorry for all i have done to you
i thank you because of all the sweet memories we have...

i don't want much,
i just want you to treat me like a friend
a friend that i can trust,
a friend that i can rely on
a friend that i can share my story with
and of course, to listen to yours too
i don't mind if you don't want to share your deepest secret with me.
of do i?


i'm sorry for all..
maaf kalau lepas ni i don't treat you like before.
sakitnyen hati ni bile terfikirkan.
tapi untuk ignore it,
i am tired now.

go away if you want to.
tell me that you don't like me if you do
tell me that you don't trust me if you do..

call me manja,
call me cengeng
call me mengada2
call me sememeh..
but it's all my feeling...so...

SUKATI AKULAH!

(anyway, all the best for SPM candidate 09 for your result)

p/s :it's not about a guy ok...